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What about me?
Saturday, July 16

Is it wrong to feel a sense of anger within me whenever someone brings this topic up? Is it wrong to feel unequal and unworthy when someone wrongly assumes you are part of something that you're not? Is it wrong to feel jealousy and hatred towards someone because you feel that they don't deserve what they have? Is this the power of jealousy? Is this what it truly feels like to lose?

Everytime I read something or see something that has to do with 'that' I feel so annoyed and angry. I wouldn't say that I deserved it, but I honestly don't understand why I didn't get it. I wanted it so bad yet some people who didn't even want it, got it and people who didn't look worthy of it, were given the opportunity to live up to it. What about me? Do I not get the chance to shine and show others what I am truly capable of?


What's done is done and although I really should grow up and be mature about it, I can't help but continuously ask and think about what would've happened if I had won.